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i swore i wouldn't talk about him.
because i know just what you'll do.
once you hear about how great he is
youll start to love him too.

& i just dont wanna share him.
i guess thats selfish to say.
its cuz i met him in an instant,
and fell in love that same day.

it all happened kinda fast,
i was afraid out of my wits,
but in getting to know this guy,
ive never felt anything like this.

i didn't realize it until recently,
but no i can not cry.
thank you God for sparing me
an angel from your sky.

i know i'm not alone,
i know ill be okay.
i dont need kevin or ricardo,
all i need is Ay.<3 

why do i always fall for you type.

what makes you think its okay,
to walk in and out of my life any given day.

what makes you think it doesnt hurt,
to watch you continuously keep going back to her.

what makes you think that i'll be fine,
when every day i spend w|out you is wasted time.

what makes you think i'm doin' alright.
when i think and cry for you every night.

what makes you think that its not bad,
to see me at 3am and kiss me like mad.

what makes you think that it's all fair,
you see me that night and now you're not there.

what makes you think that i want to see,
the "unconditional love" you feel for her publiclly.

what makes you think i'm not falling apart,
after i watch you continue to break my heart.

what makes you think its not killing my soul,
to see how much you love her as a whole.

what makes you think it doesnt rips me to shreads,
to watch her hurt you & leave you for dead.

what makes you think i want to be here,
missing you, waiting for you to reappear.

what makes you think that i'll always be waiting.
i'm getting sick of this shit, my time is fading.

what makes you think that i want to do this,
watch you hurt knowing i cant help it.

what makes you think i won't up & leave somehow?
.. maybe because i love you & i'm not strong enough now.

no wonder you think all the thoughts that you do,
because for two years i sat back & let you.

no wonder you think that you can always come back,
because ive always been here as a rebound for that.

no wonder you take advantage so well,
because i let you put me through hell.

no wonder i always fall for your type,
because i pray someone better will come overnight. 

no wonder you come & go as you like in the end.
but what makes you think i'll let you leave again?

has anybody been ripped apart?

i waited and wished and hoped and dreamed,
that life with you was not what it seemed.

that rumors and expressions were not true.
that there was so much more complexity to you.

i finally got what i wanted, and then all the same
it fell apart as quickly as it came.

with no hope, and no air left to breathe.
you told me if was time for you to leave.

im broken here, im not healing anytime soon.
i miss waking up with you at noon.

and falling asleep in your strong arms,
and protecting me from 'rain demon' harm.

and laughing til our smiles fell off,
and you playing endless guitar & rock.

you were always so kind to me.
so im here asking, dont leave me please.

you made me smile, cry, angry and blue.
yet in the midst of it all, i fell in love with you.

losing everything, including my sanity.

i know i'll be just fine.
i don't need you here today.
and though i would prefer that were;
i know i'm going to be okay.

it hurts to know the truth now.
i never that your love was fake.
i thought i was broken beyond belief;
but my heart is too strong to break.

i'm not afraid, a little hurt instead.
but no hurt is too big for me to handle.
you were my spark, my burning flame.
but it looks like someone blew out this candle.

looking back at everything we've done
i see now bright and clear;
that through every moment we spent together
you were never really here.

everyone knows what comes after hello.
this time you can sit and watch me go.
i've run out of tears, i have none left to cry.
because after hello there must come a goodbye.

there's something here tonight

being in your arms;
looking up at your eyes.
as clear as the oceans,
as blue as the skies.

dear child is shattered.
a creation gone wrong.
yet her pulse started to beat
at the sound of his song.

the rain falls hard,
it's acid & rough.
falling around our feet,
on everything but us.

this feeling in my throat.
my stomach letting free
all the little butterflies
that live inside me.

it doesn't have to make sense.
it doesn't have to be 'right'.
i just wish you could feel that
there's something here tonight.